Brooke Blurton sent shockwaves through the Bachelorette fandom earlier this month after revealing she and Darvid Garayeli had gone their separate ways.
Now, the reality star, 26, has broken her silence on the seemingly-sudden break up, and revealed she was the one who chose to end their relationship.
"As you're all aware, Darvid and I have gone our separate ways. Darvid on the 2/1 came online and publicly announced that we had parted ways," Brooke shared in a lengthy Instagram post on Thursday night.
"In an ideal world I would have preferred to have a mutual agreement and/ or had a say in when/how we express that to the public but instead woke to that news which obviously kinda shocked me. Which is where you saw my reaction.
"But Darvid had every right to make that decision, his platform, he can choose that for himself. I'd say it's better to rip the band aid off."
"It was my choice to end the relationship and I had been thinking about it for a bit towards the end. My reasons for that are completely valid to me."
Brooke said there was an intense amount of pressure on their relationship, but admitted "we both lost ourselves along the way."
"I have a lot of respect for Darvid and what he gave up for me to be IN the relationship. We had a very real love in a very unreal situation but we equally had ALOT of pressure on us too. Which I felt I carried everyday.
"At the start of the show, I was the best version of myself and when the show ended and my sister died. I became my worst and my saddest."
Brooke insisted there was "no infidelity, no hate" behind their breakup, and said she and Darvid are "as amicable as you can be during a healing process."
"I still love him dearly and have no regrets choosing him. I just wish the world was a little bit more gentle on us in the time we had," she said.
"I wish him all the very best and with support I'd really just like to move past this and hope that we become the best versions of ourselves this year."
Darvid first went public with the break up just after New Year's Eve with a lengthy post on Instagram.
"Starting the new year off with an end to a chapter and hopefully the beginning of another," Darvid wrote.
"Unfortunately Brooke and I have parted ways. Whilst we both genuinely thought we were each others person, things change and that's okay."
A few hours later, Brooke took to her own social media, revealing Darvid's post had left her blindsided and overwhelmed.
"I just want to say right now I'm finding this really quite overwhelming and just as surprising to me as you guys," she said.
"I just woke up to the news. It was definitely agreed to part ways. I just wanted to do it privately, amicably and respectfully."
"This was a surprise to wake up to just as much as it was for you guys," she concluded, adding she would be "tuning out" for now.