My daughter Anna had boyfriends regularly and they were all quite the same. They were young, awkward teenage boys who were overjoyed they had a girlfriend. I met Anna's 19-year-old boyfriend, Lukas, for the first time at a small party she had for her 17th birthday. Lukas was absolutely gorgeous: tall, tanned, green eyes, broad shoulders and ruffled blonde hair. He came up and introduced himself to me and gave me a firm handshake, which I find is so important when I meet new people. He gave me a charming, white-toothed smile and said how pleased he was to meet me. I had never intended to look amazing for the evening, but I dressed up for her birthday. But after meeting Lukas I rushed back to my room to fix my hair and make-up. Anna was my only child and over the years I have taken care of my appearance. I was only young and I was used to attracting men. I knew I shouldn't have with Lukas but there was something I couldn't resist. I ignored my feelings for him that night, while still looking at him when I coincidentally had to put more food or drinks out. While getting food from the kitchen I overheard the boys on the porch talking about how much of a MILF I was. I didn't know what a MILF was until I asked Anna the next day. Most of the guests stayed the night. As I went to bed I walked out to see Lukas returning from the bathroom shirtless. I tried to ignore it as best as I could but Lukas noticed my interest straight away and gave me a flirty, arrogant smile. I composed myself and returned the look, his surprise gave me the knowledge I could have him straight away. I controlled my urge that night; I knew it was Anna's birthday. Every time Anna wanted to invite him over I said she couldn't. I didn't want to confront him or the feelings I had. Anna got upset so often when she couldn't have him over, as it had never been an issue before, and she thought I hated him. One night I finally agreed to let Lukas stay over. I nervously got ready. My hands shook when I put my mascara on and I put on my nicest underwear and sprayed on the perfume I only used on special occasions, Chanel Chance. Lukas was arriving from his water polo practice and Anna had singing lessons the same afternoon, so I assumed they would arrive the same time. Unfortunately at 6pm Anna called and said there had been a car accident and traffic had been built up. She was trying to get the back way home but couldn't get through. Lukas arrived on time. I thought it would be awkward, conversing with my daughter's boyfriend, but I found him so witty and charming. He spoke so confidently and smoothly; I couldn't tell if he was flirting with me or not. I got a wine out of the fridge as I did every night and later found myself flirting with him. I bit the edge of my wine glass and laughed when he spoke, leaning over casually so he could catch a glimpse of my cleavage. I noticed his eyes glanced casually over my body, there was no effort to hide it and he caught my eyes, in that moment I knew I had to do something.
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