Peering into the stardust-filled snow globe that is Hollywood, you’d think Ryan Reynolds is a man who has it all.
Married to a beautiful, A-list wife (g’day, Blake Lively), father to two young daughters and proprietor of the kind of bulletproof humour he can wear as tight against his chest as that red Spandex suit, you may not expect that the actor suffers from a mental illness.
Although, in November 2016, the 40-year-old confessed that he, similar to an additional two million Australians, experiences anxiety – a term used to group a series of mental health issues that describe excessive and irrational feelings, and sometimes worries, fears and distress that can interfere with our day-to-day lives.
In Ryan’s case, his anxiety was triggered after finally finishing filming his biggest project to date: Deadpool.
Despite initially wanting to conceal his experience with anxiety, (Ryan admits hiding behind his sarcastic quips and blunt-force humour), the star’s recent confession has taught us a thing or two about what it’s like living with a mental illness.
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Upon hanging up his Deadpool boots after wrapping up shooting (and between his hilarious promo-tour appearances), Ryan admits that the pressure, and ultimately his anxiety, continued to build.
“By the time we were in post[-production], he begins, “we’d been to Comic-Con, and people went crazy for it.
“The expectations were eating me alive.”
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Anxiety is something Ryan says he has lived with since he was a child – something he attributes to his later father, who was “wasn’t easy on anyone”.
“I think the anxiety might have started there, trying to find ways to control others by trying to control myself,” he says.
It was this revelation that the actor associates with his recent “nervous breakdown”, which prompted him to seek help from a doctor.
"When [Deadpool] finally ended, I had a little bit of a nervous breakdown. I literally had the shakes,” he told GQ magazine.
“I went to go see a doctor because I felt like I was suffering from a neurological problem or something. And every doctor I saw said, 'You have anxiety'."
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While Ryan recognises the fruits of his fame and fortune, he reminds us that stars aren't immune from feeling the crippling grip of anxiety.
“I say this with the caveat that I completely recognize the ridiculously fortunate position that I am in. But the attention is hard on your nervous system — that might be why I live out in the woods. And I was banging the loudest drum for 'Deadpool.' I wasn't just trying to open it; I was trying to make a cultural phenomenon."
It was during this turbulent time that he leant on his wife, Blake Lively, for support.
“Blake helped me through that,” Reynolds says. “I’m lucky to have her around just to keep me sane.”
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